& so i loved another white mani don't want anything but
the fight underwater the haloes of layered hair
the imaginary video footage the fingers up
against each other the flying birds in the lamplight
the diving into my belly button
the burn the onslaught
the leaking snot on my face as i kiss you goodnight dear
goodnight darling. nothing but fingers deep inside
you wrestling your whiteness out
a sword of a lining a last shuddering squelch.
How to Get Into a Psych WardWhat if you learned to desecrate yourself at the hands of the state?
He had to pretend he was poisoned by the Queen of England.
We have to be TV antiheroes.
I don't need a gurney or white sheets, I mean, yes I do.
Walk in and sometimes they think you're crazy and sometimes they think you're a silly
girl. You're lucky but...
On some level, there is no difference between an EMT and a police officer.
Here are the squat packs. Air & blood, no, no blood. Never any blood.
I asked an EMT if I was going to die. He barely answered, said he didn't know.
Fifteen with the stockings in the snow. Blue, blue jacket-- discarded in college. There are lights everywhere in this aftermath of not-dying.